Breakup?

No fun. I'm still not sure how I feel about it. I mean I really still love him, but honestly. From my point of view, perhaps I should have seen it coming, but that wouldn't have made it any less painful. I mean, when I saw the text (yes, he was jerkfaced enough that he actually broke up with me over text) I was completely numb for all of a minute.

Just. DAMMIT. Really. I have such mixed feelings with this whole thing. I love him, but I hate him. And I feel like I want to punch him and I'm still thinking about best to go for our first kiss. No I hate him. I'm really angry. Angry, frustrated, overwhelmed, sad, everything. I really don't know how I feel. I think... I feel a bit relieved? I'm not sure.

One of my first impulse responses was to think of a story to write about to get the anger out. I thought about it, and it fermented into something really... I'm not sure. Something interesting. Basic premise is: a very selfish, self-centered girl travels to somewhere and finds that she's been transported to another universe where everything is completely foreign. She's allowed to travel back and forth but at limited times, and only when the Council allows it. She goes back sometimes to visit her boyfriend who has hidden the fact that he has terminal cancer from her for as long as he could, until he dies one day. Grief overwhelms the girl and she wants to steal the magic from the other universe to bring him back, but the Council won't let it, and that's when they reveal their secret. She was to fulfill an ancient prophecy. So many adventures she can come across, and she forgets about him. Until another guy comes along.

It's not a complete development of the story, but it's getting close.

I love writing so much. If you can't tell, it helps me. This started out a little angry, right? Now it's just distant and indifferent. :) Happy a little, even? Writing is good therapy. Go write, now.